Sunday, April 28, 2013

Five-Minute Friday | FRIEND |



The #5MF topic this week is FRIEND.  Lisa-Jo (the creator of Five-Minute Friday) said: "Let’s spend our five minutes of writing today sharing about friendship. Fight it, love it, hate it, hurt or healed by it, we were certainly built for it".  I am mainly a positive person to others, but I am a true introvert.  This is actually an area where I feel I have been hurt way too much; to the core.  It's only God who has taken me out from wallowing in my hurt feelings, though.

From 13 to about 21 years of age-- I can truly say that I had been hurt so many times in so many ways, that I just sat in self-pity and nearly died there.  Everyone who knew me saw it, and it just drove people further away.  I was so selfish, yet I still cared so much for others.  That is one dichotomy that I cannot explain, yet I experienced it for so long in my heart.  I was growing, but I could not grow out of my hurt.  Once I chose to be a little more selfless about reacting to how I felt; my heartache started to subside.  I am, by no means, cured of my heartache.  But I can rise above the hurt by attempting to fulfill my calling and just focusing on more positive things in general.

So basically, God has been my friend throughout my existence!  From when I was little and had accepted him with my whole heart, to now.  He's never left me (even when I feel distant from Him), so I deem Him my only true friend.  "Friends" will come and go... maybe they will stick around.  But there is One who will not change.



4 comments:

  1. Hi Anna! Just for the record, I've never thought of you as selfish! ;) But I do understand how it's a mysterious dichotomy with caring about others. And I understand the perseverance in our calling, while submitting hurts to God. It's really the best way to handle hurt in my opinion. Anyway, thanks for sharing and I hope you're doing well! Have a good night! :)

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    1. Awh Jacqui, you always understand what I mean! We are sisters for sure. It's totally the best way to handle hurt... any other way wouldn't be as effective. I am doing great! Good night to you, too <3 :)

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